Let Hope In
I’ve been wanting to write about what it’s like being pregnant after a loss. I’m sure everyone experiences it differently, but for me, carrying this child has simply been different, trying to be healthy about it physically, mentally and emotionally but having to work at all of those. As someone who takes great comfort in being prepared but also has been raised to believe in optimism, those two sometimes felt at odds with each other. It’s been a learning curve, this constant balance between bracing yourself and letting hope in. Some observations of what’s been different: -Putting off small, specific tasks, to-do’s or ‘official’ plans. It’s the little things. Before we lost Abram and had multiple miscarriages, once we saw a positive pregnancy test, I wrote ahead in the calendar how far along I’d be each week all the way to the due date. Something in my Type A mama brain loved to see it all laid out and reaching the next milestone week after week. I only ha...